soooo i drew a new picture which makes me happy cuz even though its not the best it makes me feel good cuz i havent forgotten how to draw, just havent been inspired. raving has inspired me to be creative again. im gonna take some pics of all the epic kandi i've made too, aaaaaaaaand all of my kandi that i've gotten... hopefully i'll have a camera instead of just my boyfriends phone XDD

an update on myself... well july 19th was my first rave called infocus since then i've been to a raver day at six flags, nocturnal festival, lights out 2, monster massive, and hard haunted... and many more to come...
i dont think i could have gotten myself into a better scene. raving has not only changed me for the better, given me a new outlook on life, broke me out of my shell of that shy little girl who sat in a corner never taking a chance and talking to people... but it has given me the inspiration i need to start drawing and being creative again. its made me happy, like i finally have SOMETHING to do that totally fits my personality. i've made so many amazing new friends and met some very sweet people that i will remember for the rest of my life.

i made myself some phat pants that i sewed all by hand to wear when i rave which i will post a picture of soon. when i wore them to lights out 2 i was asked by sooooo many people if they could buy them or to tell them where i got them. so im thinking of starting a small business, im in the process of making another pair of phat pants for a friend Ducky from plurlife, i'll post pictures of those when i finish too. i dont have a sewing machine yet so im making them by hand and its a lot harder than making them for myself because i want them to be as perfect as i can. but someday i will be able to get one when i have money and i can start making them faster. those pants go for at least $80 or more online so i figure its pretty good money once i get started.

right now i live with my boyfriend ian, and though times are very tough because he has been actively searching for a job for a lil over 2 months now and no one will call back or do anything when he goes in to check on his application. so its on me to pay rent and get us food (when i say food i mean the cheapest store brand white bread and pb&j) things have been a bit rocky i know that we will make it through and come out stronger than before. we moved into the coolest place with the chillest roommates ever haha. its good to know that we arent worrying about where to live anymore.

work sucks, i work at quiznos for minimum wage and not nearly enough hours but its a job and right now the economy is so bad its nearly impossible to find a job, and not having a working car thanks to my asshole "family" (well no car now cuz it got towed for not being registered) doesnt help because im limited to walking distance, and bus scheduals because when your a little 110 lb girl walking too far at night alone is scary especially with my luck. but i've gone through hell and somehow always manage to find a way to survive so i'll deal with this job for now.

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wanna see some new pics of me and what i've been up to??? check out my plurlife: [link]